Praise the LOrD

keep the ball rolling...

2005-07-19T00:05:00.000+08:00

Today is a great day and i finally get this opportunity to update my blog! It has been months since i update it.

My examination had just ended. * heaved a sigh of relief * All in all, I sat for three papers- Advertising and Promotional Management ( APM ), Media Studies ( MS ) and Communication Skills ( CS ). Praise the Lord!!!

Things are always changing and change is the only constant in life. I am being placed in this new cell group to grow more in the Lord and I believe God has His ways of plans for me as His thoughts are higher than mine. But somehow i am gonna miss my cell - N105. They are the best and I am going to miss my leader much too. Oh well, all things work together for good to those who walk according to His purpose. :) Amen?

I am going to work tomorrow! Hooray!!! That means more money to spend, yah, shopping is inevitable. heehee ;) Nowadays the sales are real tempting so Jocelyn have to shun away from malls haha..

My dear daddy's gonna receive quite a large sum of vouchers for his 20 years of loyalty to his Company this November. I am so proud of him! He is indeed a great worker. Family day is coming up too. Wondering what's this year are this years plans and activities... That also means a new digi-cam for our family!!! so that means it's time to treasure my family and friends by snapping more pictures. Hooray! Zombie becoming..

Alright, am off for today..

preaching test

2005-05-20T03:45:00.000+08:00

Silence of the night i admire...solitude :D_)

How is it to my above question. I pretended i was pastor Phil Pringle and tried to be like him and in the end "pi lom pom piang" my small dretched yellow note fell on the ground. I walked out of the preaching hall with great confidence. I mean i've finished my summon. NOW!!! It's about being mocked at in school and how i overcame it with big mustard seed... parables and more parables...

After that was really exciting.. i learnt salsa dance and met lots of new friends in church. They are the coolest bunch of people from POS, North Cluster. My cluster's gonna win!!! hallelujah :)
I'm going down again tomorrow. Thank jesus for such a fruitful day.. I love dancing!!! yayay!!! I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

silence is golden, bye..

3.45am.. counting down.. 12 hr 15 min to go for POS. bye folks!! parang coming liao.. run for life... ;P

Good way to start my morning

2005-05-15T11:08:00.000+08:00

"Read my Bible, pray everyday.." amen

2005-05-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

Hi, I'm back after a long while. Blogging has been in my mind for days and i finally execute it.

Today was my makeover day. Dear Jolene came to my house to make me up. whao.. there's a deeper level of being a woman of God!!! Beauty is in the spiritual. when your heart speaks and shines like Jesus, whatever you speak, give, share, love just glow... My mom was so shocked to see me in my makeover "new" jocelyn and my dad was impressed too. woaaa.. I was even more impressed with my parents' response. hallelujah.. here's more being a woman. Praise the Lord!

Just finished my introduction... hahahaha.. ;b With my makeup on, i feel so different, so magnificent, but God says looks are only not the substance in us. All of beauty's from the heart. Now it's so breezy, so cooling and so romantic!!! wooohooo. It's seemed like i'm so trapped in my own world that even the wind i seem don't feel it. food for thought : take notice and admire what you've Got and give thanks for the slightest things. It's about to pour heavily now. I love the calamity and the hycionic breath of wind before rain. hmm.. can you smell it? can you smell it?

Life's beautiful with God... How many people actually settle down to fatasy, dream of the impossible or just so caught up in the busy schedule of life? So is there any meaning just doing for the sake of doing [ a thing ] ?

Everything has something good to reflect and ponder about. So what's been up? Don't get too busy with life.. it's meant to be an exciting journey with relaxation. For the Lord gives joy!!!

My longing for the Lord

2005-05-09T17:33:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord,
I'll bless your holy name. I'll bless your holy name.You ask me who do i, say that you are am i, say that you 're the Christ? Son of the Living God.

windows of hope

2005-05-05T08:55:00.000+08:00

The above is so true.
When i open my window
It came in..
I love jesus!!!
I love walking in the romantic light...
still walking keep on walking

I love MDIS

2005-04-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

One who carries His Everything in God's perspective is more than enough, above the norm. I just love it. Someone with God's Presence and Visions and dreams will always be confident and looks straight ahead to reach goals beyond human capabilities. That's what we are make for in the first place.

Nothing compares to having a goal awaiting for you to open and review and analyse to achieve it. We live for a far greater purpose so settling for 'just enough' attiude is not our means to survive.

Live to the fullest, Experience the impossible and taste the magnitude of greatness!!!

I can't wait for tomorrow's prayer meeting meet and Happy Birthday to that friend of mine!

THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!

God is good, all the time!!!

2005-04-23T20:07:00.000+08:00

You make my evening. Thank you. ;P

too long never post

2005-04-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes. feeling want to and don't want too. No ugly girls but laziness tears and play a part in ladies' life. i'm currently doing mass communications. My chinese super bad bad bad. got to catch up or else... Anyway, i'm feeling excellentae and life's fun with activities. cool (O:

Missed watching TV or rather the box that talks. My chinese. God spare me... -screaming deep inside- ain't not the feeling good?! good bad, all cha cha..

God's good. He's in my mind. WANT to be like him. Hebews and more hebrews! Going on to perfection... yay..

Anyone can book me now.

School's from 9-12 mon to fri. exceptional - 2-5pm on some days. :)

I miss some people whom i feel so near, yet so far.. sigh...

alrightie, bye for now!

:)

2005-04-12T11:14:00.000+08:00

Must girls really get into a relationship?! One who has a high level of standard WILL NOT take anyone. If it's me, i would not even store the SMSes of those ________!!! Seriously. Girls who are of a certain level of expectations WON'T AT ALL go out or even "stick" with superficial guys! *heaved a sigh of relief....

What I am compelled to???
let me give you a lecture. IS BAD LOVE BETTER THEN no love?? Think about it. Think! I feel that girls nowadays just settle for mediocre or even below average. This is absurb!!!

Alright, that's how i feel. :)

i do not want to type this

2005-04-11T11:20:00.000+08:00

long ago was close to you
someone came in and it broke
trying hard
very hard

things weren't the same anymore
changes seemed so bad
good friends go
new friends come.

okay. These things are so true in life.There're friends who leave prints in your heart yet something hinder yet it's so hard. God has a plan for all of us. Cards i wrote seemed so fake. But the meaning within don't reveal. controlled tears.

:(

2005-03-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

new version of msn, made my DAy........ZombIe becomIng!!!!!

YESYESYESyesyesyesyesyeS____

2005-03-26T15:55:00.000+08:00

I am finally alone at home!!! SO SUPER HAPPY!!!!!NO one to disturb and no more momo nags!!! hallelujah..today's kidda calm day. love the breath of rainy air. And THe gReatest news is I AM GOING FOR A MODELING interview... WOOOOHooooo....So excited and happy sia!!! wohhooooooo!!!!!it looks like i'm corrupting the serenity of weather.

MoDe: on top of the world with calamity

2005-03-25T12:44:00.000+08:00

GOOD FRIDAY!!!

2005-03-25T12:40:00.000+08:00

Life is like a box of chocolate. ever boring. no money to spend. computer always so slow!!! wooww.today is Good friday.reminds me of Jesus's crucifixion. all struggles were bared on hIM. pRAISE tHE lord. I HAVE eNOUgH RESt. FEElING FAT fAT. pAPAyA I JUSt ATE. SLEEP EAT SLEEP EAT. tHANK gOD FOR hIS CrOSS THAT wE SO FALLEN HAVe LIFE.......

no title

2005-03-21T07:13:00.000+08:00

blog's not in my head.finally res+ing time for me. All glory +o my best friend-Chris+ JesuS. PraiSe +he LoRd.DuNn0 whA+ t0 tYpe.WorDs unEXpreSssed.Don't WAnnnA leAVe His PReseNce.I lOve You daaaaddy.

cambell soup - - - dead

2005-03-20T15:50:00.000+08:00

canno+ caNn0+!!! i'M dead..Snor!ng.. ZZZZzzzzzz

2005-03-19T05:55:00.000+08:00

cannot wait for cell group
quick quick
+ime's up quick quick quick

bounce.is.a.fun.game

2005-03-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

bonce bounce bounce _________________________________ +O bed.you.are.deeply.tricked.how s+up!d you are.basically.i am +ired.bounce to beD.hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

GOOD ANSWER

2005-03-04T05:59:00.000+08:00

For the convenience of mine when i sms you. IT's a sign of respect and basic courtesy when you were taught in your early childhood days. thanks but no thanks to all who didn't reply. *MAd*

Cina aunty

2005-03-02T01:05:00.000+08:00

"what time now?" i asked, irritATED

CHINA lady replied " .................."

She started talking in piao zhun cina..
i was like.. huh??? ni suo shem ma.. jialat larrrrs..all she talk cim chim one..liak bo jiu..sorry.. "i dunno isit .." then she asked me to coach her eng and she'll teach me chinese. paiseh lorss..i chine can't speak chinese lorss...ahh.. paisah laa..."so what;s de guo??" i asked.. she came out with a whole big chunk of !%&9898#$^%..waa... Then The train "tao payoh" "bye aunit.." + smiles.. waa.. she grabed my hand and wa.. the feeling..ah yo..o_O

thirteen bucks yellow top

2005-02-27T01:45:00.000+08:00

Good day with Nelly in town. Bought a yellow top from forever 21! wearing it tomorrow to church. i gonna sleep now. hop to bed..and she blessed me with something lovely for my birthday. thanx.

...

2005-02-26T13:03:00.000+08:00

When i was about to leave the shop today @ 9++, i realised that i've forgotten to bring the shop key along with me. So that also means that i can't close the shop. surprisingly, i wasn't very anxious or anything and a still calm voice spoke " In all things give thanks." wooahh.. Peace that surpasses all understanding. Praise the Lord! :) Then my boss had to come all the way down from Bukit Batok ( her house ) just to close the shop for me. i was so paiseh. This will always serve as a reminder to check if the key's with me.

must post post!! what's more than my beloved JESUS??ahhh..

2005-02-25T00:58:00.000+08:00

ahhhh........how how how? i'm deep in love with Jesus!!! ahhhhhhh......the feeling is tremendous, overflowing, empowering, tangible ever, satisfying and so cannot be expressed. ahhhh.... what is love? hey people, you got to feel it, feel it , feel it.. who sets me free??? from the creepy fear and depression and hurts and unforgivesness and the robber of life that robs your joy and the peace that surpasses all understanding- pride. I'll never never in my life gonna let disastrous pride enter or touch an ant bit of me. Yay..i LOVE rev. Ulf Ekman!!! He shared on friendship on the 1st night, missions and missionaries on the 2nd night and pride today. I always dislike summons about missions. Don't know why.. But rev. Ulf Ekman's message literally change my whole perspective about taking the nations. Now it seems easier. I wanna be one.. But i've to be open to receive from the elders and leaders God has placed in my life. Thanks to all the people who have revealed my shortcomings and flaws of mine. You know who you're and i'm transformed because of you. Truckloads of thankyous.. So many things to type.. :D never felt so in love before.. ahhhh....later i'll list some things that i've learnt. and thanks yaqi and sister Elena and all for making me less panicky by booking seats for me. hahas..alright, here's what i've learnt :

On friendship
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God came to put us together again and that's where destiny is born
Everybody needs somebody else
We're not meant to be alone
Love melts people..awww
Brotherly love causes you to appreciate others who are different
You'll have many aquaintances but few friends
You can be nice to get something out of somebody..beware! Danger!
Britherly love = love within the family
We stick together because we're in the same blood of Christ..come join me, don't wanna miss you
Love will even love your enemies..tough but rewarding
The Devil cannot stand love!
Pure love flows in all the time
In God's kingdom, cultivate friendships..it's all worth having a friend, a friend so why not be one?
Friendship is the place where you can relax freely to be yourself
Friends are born in crisis of life

Missions and Missionaries
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Every is called to go.. so send me not send him
The opportunities are waiting
The mission fields start outside the church doors
A missionary goes somewhere else, out of his nation
Your whole body will stand before kings and queens..a promise from God
You're called to nations, not a nation
Just go because you have the Holy Spirit
Have a willing heart to go
Every country is equally important in the eyes of God
Don't tell me you can't go because you can't speak their languages
If there's a crowd, just preach
A good missionary endures till the end
God will provide for me.. even $$$ so rest assure
I must respond to my calling and because of that, i will be blessed

Pride
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lonely in heart = humility, meekness
meekness is strength, not weakness
Matthew 5:5 " Blessed are those who are humble, for they shall inherit the kingdom of God."
Meekness is the way to victories
Humility is not easy but it'll come
Being humble is never pushing myself down but knowing where i come from and totally secure in it
It takes time to develop humility and there's time
Even Paul nad Peter are not perfect
Jesus hates pride, resist pride and push pride away
iniquity pushes you away
Pride elevates itself and end in disaster
Humility lowers itself and ends in exhortation
Pride will hit me very easily
When you don't fight pride when you're in it, it'll come out through your personality and there will be a fall in your personality.
Pride is a broadway that will lead to destruction
Summit to God in humility
Behind fear, there's pride " i don't want to fail because people will think that i'm so good"
Kill pride and don't play with it because when it's dead, it has no power to fight back and that's the beauty of killing it
When you're out of pride, there's ease [ peace that surpasses all understanding ]
It's easier said than done, that's precisely why we've to keep fighting it.
All pride is lack of trust
Pride is buiding and depending on yourself and the main focus is me, myself and i
Humility is reacting towards the truth and the truth will set you free
When there're hard facts, you are secure and on the other hand, no facts, you'll be loud
Pride is a killer in your Christian walk with God
Only obedience brings humility
Act out humility
There're times we defend ourselves like crazy but at times just allow God to fight for you and He'll make sure you win
You don't have to prove you're a child of God, security tells it all
We're nothing and everything in Christ Jesus = humility

woooah... it's long long, very long. got to go.. Be of good cheer and keep walking for Jesus. it's all very worth it. I love you!

written, expressed..

2005-02-24T02:00:00.000+08:00

Does results in life determine who we are in society
Trying to clinch to the top without humility
So can parents reduce the pressure by not comparing
For the sake of believing in them and to nurture security

Who says taking the longer route means you lack the abilities
I disagree totally
Mocking from people teaches you how to walk in humility
And ride the distance of life with increasing faith

Having an open heart to receive and accept the circumstances whatsoever
Will enlarge my capacity deep within
He'll show me the paths that is the best for me
Then i will walk and keep walking for Him

flaws are mistakes i made in life that makes me great

2005-02-21T01:43:00.000+08:00

That's a super revelation from heaven. Another revelation from JESUS. "The devil is chasing after you because you're doing my will." woooohooo!!! i'm flying in the spirit now. i love you, JESUS!
:D

air bud : seventh inning fetch

2005-02-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

I just finished watching air bud : seventh inning fetch. It's kidda nice. wooah.. if i have a dog that can feel how i feel and run down the roads just to pass me my bag which i've forgotten to bring to school, that will be so great! well, only in tv shows and dreams.

my day started great with cg. we stand for praise again. i love that! and my leaders are soooo passionate for/about everything that's music! i'm inspired to write, but someone out there have to do the tuning for me. learning learning, jojo learning. haha.. and brother Darren taught me to have grace which sinply means be thankful and have a thankful heart. this is so true. pastor Kong said that too. that the greatest emotion is gratitude. to be thankful for the smallest or the most insignificant. have you ever thought you'll no longer be on earth tomorrow, so thank God for little things like air that you breathe that gives you life. time, mommys, daddies, love ones, these are worth giving thanks for. does these ever ring your bell? so be thankful in everything! and let us run our race with endurance the race of life and appreciate the distance of it and WIN!!! yes. WIN. and here's four practical steps on how to run your life with endurance. 1. you must have a clear focus 2. have self-control 3. endurance 4. fix your eyes on Jesus. i especially love that part about being a pacer in someone elses' life and someone will be a pacer in your life. one that will empower you to move on and hold on to achieve. with friends like this, it'll be heaven on earth and i'm working on this.. ;p

another route

2005-02-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

cough cough cough. it's back because of my itchy mouth. after two toast bread and it worsen. :(

popped onto the bus after work to get home. a thought came. it was some sort like that " i wish this bus will take me to a different route. " and it really did because of the chingay rehearsal. an immediate answered thought just in a split second. can't believe it. all things are possible shows all things are possible.

can't wait for tomorrow to come. cg day!

plain bread + cheese + apple juice

2005-02-18T02:00:00.000+08:00

that's my dinner. i can hear my stomach growling now..

superb Day

2005-02-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

haha.. I sounded so sad just now.. so funny! But happy things are a must to blog. hot and cold, which one would you choose? i went to macs to buy breakfast just now. bought two sets of egg muffin meal and you must be thinking if i'm gonna have everything for myself, right? Actually i planned to blessed mommy. i know she likes the egg muffin meal but she ended up not eating it cause she says it's not filling. then she says i can eat her portion. it was around 12+ noon by then and the crispy hashbrown has turned soggy and oily and cold as well as the muffin. but no choice had to eat it or else it'll go to the bin. * waste waste larrs * so i ate it. almost puke. so the answer is HOT ( for the above question )! i know i know, lame! O''O

Then shopping with peiyi was the most enjoyable. She tried sooooooooooooo many clothes and even bought a super sexy white top ( can be a dress too ) from Forever 21, which is our very 1st destination. Then we headed to Isetan, i pointed out this flowery skirt and she bought it the moment she tried it. very efficient shopaholic. we laughed non-stop throughout over some funny conversations we had. haha.. then went to taka and after which heeren. whoa.. it's been like ages since i last went there. Soooooo many new shops. Sooooooo many nice clothes. and both of us were so tempted.. went into fitting rooms after fitting rooms and just try for fun! yah, don't laugh.. but it's so fun larrs.. i learn and am learning to appreciate laces and flowery prints, they're beginning to look nice in my sight. Not that i never like or appreciate them, just pretty ignorant sometimes. Good revelation- pay attention the the smallest designs. they can appear simple and not very appealing at first sight but it actually make your clothes, bags, accessories looked special. ah ya.. hard to put it in words. Peiyi gave me some insights on clothes! woohoooo!!! when can we go shop again? ;P

Then off to Bible study. Sister Yah Lan was the preacher today. It's the presence of God during worship that stirs me again. Power! Sister Yah Lan has very interesting expressions. And i felt most ministered during that prayer before the BS ended. today's msg was about repentance.And i also learnt that Repentance is inward change and outward action, not just about praying a prayer. It was another amazing work of God. i always feel different after service, cell and bS.. and after praying the prayer of repentance and confessing my sins to God. I felt the supernatural peace and joy filled me.

great day!

i'm having a lil headache now cause i think didn't really sleep last night because of my hunger or something..

LOVE is BIG and it is :P

2005-02-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

Loving someone is easy, but loving someone unconditionally takes a lot of humilily. I love to be someone who forgives easily and also BIG enough to forget.

Ever loving Father,
Give me a willing heart to forgive ,
by your love i release...
Your love inspires ...
Feelings are meant to be there,
for you to address.
Let me be able to say,
" Forgive them Father, for they do not know what they are doing."

food i need

2005-02-16T07:47:00.000+08:00

unbelievable! it's only 8am and i'm fast awake! i love the air so fresh. * breathe in breathe out * i'm very hungry..haven't taken my dinner last night.. * rub stomach * okaes dokes, off to macs for now..yaya..egg mcmuffin meal. bye and can't wait for today's activities. running running running running to macs..

OutpouR From CloudS

2005-02-15T13:20:00.000+08:00

Don't get me wrong. It's the chicken Soup book. I love chicken soup too, mama always bring me to Country Manna to eat and now no more cause of the change of manager and the lousy customers service. But i don't really miss it. I'm very very very very very blessed. Can't believe someone got sacked because of my pair of heels. ah yo.. i sent my heels for repair and the person who repaired my shoe scratched it very badly and made it even worst. and i heard from the staffs that he got sacked because he couldn't afford to pay for it. 4O bucks cause him to lose his job. anyway, they gave me a brand new pair of heels. i was like laughing so hard on the inside and probably the glow of my face showed. haahaa ;) favour of men from God himself, you can never contain. I love you Jesus. and also trying to walk in obedience everyday. what's more? the baby owner gave me an angbao. i'm so happy. and i'll be going shopping with peiyi in town tomorrow. and God blessed me witha shopping trip with her and with Taka vouchers from my papa. whoa..gonna get a nice pair of jeans this time round and probably a belt. i'm overjoyed.

I don't know if i can take it

2005-02-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today is like the longest day ever possible. I reached Nikos at around 1245 and it's my first time tending the shop for so many hours! And i read approximately five to six magazines, was soooooo bored.. And hopefully this will not happen everyday when i worked full time next month. It's not the loneliness actually but the fact that not even ten customers walked into the shop simply pissed me off. I checked the records when was the last time we sold something, it was more than a week ago and was thankful that i sold a pair of ear ring today. :(

my Grammys

2005-02-14T10:45:00.000+08:00

ahh! Can't watch till the end cause i've to go to work! grrr.. *sobs big time*

Love in the air so thick

2005-02-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

aww..It's Valentines Day! I can feel the love in the air, the sweet aroma filling my nostril. aww.. I just kissed my mama to wish her and cutie pie too. So sweet right? And retro coolie and jayden. haha.. Everyone's got a date and poor jojo has to report to work in a few hours time. *weep* But it's okie. Can't believe i'm turning seventeen soon, just 19 more days! It's so cool.. and i'm begging mommy to cook something for my dear cell and Chicken curry Has to be in the menu. Absolutely no compromise. I love retro coolie. It's so amazing how God brought us closer within a day. Don't be so sad girl! Staying single has it's benefits and more liberty i think! :) Church is always the highlight of the week. One thing i know is true. I love my Jesus and people can destroy and take away my material posessions but you can't steal Him away. That's what keeps me going all the time. I'm addicted, addicted, addicted to you. And here's the 10 Big qualities of Big people i learnt today in church -

a. Big people are generous
b. Big people can accept differences
c. Big people forgive and forget easily
d. Big people empower others to be successful
e. Big people don't try to be big people
f. Big people treat little people well
g. Big people listen
h. Big people honour leadership and accept guidance
i. Big people respect manners and spatialiy
j. Big people have big capacity

These are so useful and practical so if you want to be a Bigger person, do all the above!
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL!!!

water is my doctor

2005-02-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

Yes indeed. My cough recovered because i drank so many glasses of water. :) Today is the 1st time in my entire 16 years + 2 months of my life on planet earth eating so little. Only 2 pieces of BBQ prawns, 1 small piece of beef and a small plate of fried rice + apple juice with aloe vera. And i was feeling a little full. haha.. unbelievable! And for dinner, i was so sick of the nearby coffeeshop food so i decided to eat my chilli crab maggi mee. And since my cough has recovered, i'm back eating cny goodies again. Food is one thing i can't resist!!!

haha

2005-02-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

...not that i ate too much but it's the time of the month again :( Today's the 2nd day of Lunar New Year. Went to visit Queenie and her family at Yew Tee. God must have known that i have been craving super hard for good Chicken Curry and guess what, aunty Jenny cooked it for me! The familiar smell reached my nose when i stepped into the Kitchen. I ate one full bowl + a can of water chestnut and was full. Oh yes! And satay too.. Yummy :B *slurps* After that i played with Queenie and we all went to eat our dinner cause papa wanted something filling instead of just curry alone. I don't want a fussy man next time. :p Hahaha! oh well, up to God to decide. And because majority of us love Prata, aunty Jenny bought 8 of them and mama was like " Jo will surely be tempted again and eat later..'' But i was like feeling so tired by then and also had a bloated stomach, simply no appetite. And hooray, proved mama wrong this time round. Chinese New year is always a festive season for food. I love it and tomorrow will be going to mama's cell members' house to eat again, yes.. eat! But i guess i won't eat much :( Good also cause i won't gain weight. Hees. More angbaos tomorrow.. Good good good! Everyone said i've slimed down so much. Fantastic jo..keep it up :D

Gong Xi Fa Cai

2005-02-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

I love Chinese new year!!! Collected about $150+ today, more to go.. *laugh till jaw drop* And i wore a gold china collar top today and received lots of compliments. ;) After visiting all my dad's side relatives, my family took a cab down to visit my grandpa. He's so happy today and i'm glad he is. I have great faith that he's recovering fast. Praise the Lord! As said, God is good, all the time. I love my grandpa. And i met nelly and family too ( my mom's side cousins ). She so pretty now. I grow up with her, from playing kitchen cooking till now she's waiting for her A levels results. Both of us are having our post exams hols now. Cool! Tomorrow will be another great day. I'll be out visiting my little Queenie and family. Yay!

You were there

2005-02-08T01:13:00.000+08:00

I wonder how it must have felt / When David stood to face Goliath on a hill / I imagine that he shook with all his might / Until You took his hand and held on tight / Cause You were there / You were there / In the midst of danger's snare / You were there / You were there always / You were there when the hardest fight / Seemed so out of reach / Oh You were there / You were always there / You were always there / So there he stood upon that hill / Abraham with knife in hand and was poised to kill / But God in His sovereignty had bigger plans / And just in time You brought a lamb / Cause You were there / You were there / In the midst of the unclear / You were there / You were there always / You were there when obedience / seemed to not make sense / You were there, You were always there / You were always there / So haven't I learned that my ways / Not have understood you / There you were... / Hanging blameless on a cross / You would rather die than leave us in the dark / Every moment every planned coincidence / Just all make sense / With your last breath / You were there, you were there / During history's darkest hour / You were there, you were there always / You were the victor and the king / You were the power in David's swing / You were the calm in Abraham / You are the God who understands / You are the strength when we have none / You are the living, Holy one / You were, you are and you will always be / The Risen lamb of God

So meaningful ain't it? It's by Avalon.

challenge every limit

2005-02-06T00:37:00.000+08:00

Cell was great. I like most about challenging every limit. And i'm having a friend in mind for my salvation map. Brother Darren is right. There's a satisfaction within me when i'm doing the will of God. I'm counting down, around five more hours to go and i'll be out of bed, bathe and get ready to meet charmaine Tan for the 9am service. It's been very long since i last go for services early in the morning. I simply can't wait. Heard from dad and mom that Friday service was great, it was about Intimacy With God. Whoa! Powerful! I have to go now because have to be up by 6am, leave my house at 7am to meet Char, have Macs breakfast and catch the 7.35am chartered bus. I'll be attending service 4 and 5 tomorrow and have to be in Great World City by 3pm. Long day but exciting!

computer giving me problems

2005-02-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

It's so frustrating. This new computer always gives me problem!!! ;( I better keep it short or else later everything disappears..

Yesterday was a good. Went to visit my doctor and told him that i've completely stopped the medication and after i prayed a short quick prayer, he said it's alright as long as i'm feeling good. whoa.. i know it's God doing the talking because i know that i know that he won't say such a thing. So prayers help, yes it 100% does..Then headed straight to Chinatown with mom, got 1 denim jacket, 2 casual tops. woohoo ;p Have to chop-chop like mad cause have to rush for BS at YMCA by 6pm. This time round i'm on time. I love worship time, it's when the presence of God will fill you and you can experience him so near, so near.. Being in His presence is better than anything. Brother Meng How was my Bible Study teacher. He's super humurous and Zilei and i literally laughed throughout the whole lesson. It was very practiacal and applicable in my life - Keys To successful Relationships. wow!!!
a. serve one another
b. give to others
c. be interested in other people
d. esteem others
e. encourage others
f. appreciate others and be thankful to them
g. smile
h. Fulfill the royal law - Love your neighbour as yourself ( james 2:8 )
I feel these are really useful. After that met up with Danielle aka Shiyi so the three of us went to Plaza Singapura to eat. erm, actually only i ate cause Zilei and Danielle have food at home. So blessed. I've not eaten home-cooked food for ages. :'( I missed it mom..It'll be an answered prayer if you cook for me, not asking for much, even simple dishes is fine. Please..but i doubt she'll be reading this :'O Zilei bought a hairclip and we all went home after that. Reached home, and mom asked me if i want to go Chong Pang. I went and got a denim skirt at $19. Cheap cheap cheap.. Uncle is always so generous, always giving me discounts..haha :) That's about all..

yuppies, tired now. Darren's asleep. I missed his thoughtfulness and voice. He hasn't been talking to me for about two weeks and i guess he's still angry. I hope he'll talk to me soon. Dad mom's not back too. Their cell always ends so late but i believe they're on their way back now. It's supposed to be short but i think it's kidda long but nvm.. bye

$ matters

2005-02-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

I came home with mum screaming in my ears '' Have you gotten your pay? No point working .. " I shouted back rudely trying to explain. You know it's so frustrating, and dad rubbed it in and that was even worst. Well, and now as i start to pen my feelings down, i remember pst Audrey said harsh words stop communication. I went straight to take a shower and was still very much irritated. Sometimes, parents just don't seem to see in a child's point of view and that's probably they're just adults. Adults are adults, more complicated etc etc but they come with much wisdom and in chinese we say they eat salt more than we eat rice..well, no point proving to them things sometimes and to me, staying silent helps :)

Passion of the Christ

2005-01-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

Just watched Passion Of the Christ and was deep in tears when Jesus got whipped [ ouch ] I empathised with Jesus' mum, having to see his only beloved son so badly tortured..if it's me, i don't think i can take it..I've to learn to be more forgiving as well. And sometimes it's sooo hard to love those who dislike you or is against you in one way or the other but Jesus endured the cross and He did. He truely has a heart for all. i admire him. It's easy to be said then done, seriously and forgiving someone takes a lot of humility, to put others first before oneself just as Christ did.

Jesus your love fills me and made me whole
Thank you for restoring my thirsty soul
As i'm willing to go down to the lowest pit
You hold me close and make your love for me so deep

When i have you i have everything
I am you and you are me
Your presence i'm addicted
Please please don't leave me

You show you prove your love for me
Oh oh so lovely
I love you Jesus
forever . . .

Can't stop being addicted to you O0''oO

food and more food

2005-01-29T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today is food day for me. Went for meley's wedding in church and the food was really good! Thanks for your invitation..And headed to my ex-cell member's new house in hougang. Well, nice house i can say :) Now i'm still very full, probably my tummy's bloated..ahahas ;p Enough of food for me, enough..

Will be going to church tomorrow..woohoo~ And i want God's presence. Addicted to it and it's absence will make me faint!

sorry darren..didn't mean it..keep the rest of the $$$, i'll bless you.. sorry :'(

make up cell

2005-01-29T01:51:00.000+08:00

kaes, i'll keep everything short as i'm kidda tired and have to be up early to do urshering in church for meley's wedding. This is my 1st time in my life going for make up cell. Whoa, the peeps over there's so friendly and my ldr's hse so cosy. i hardly attend cell at night. But this time round's really good. great to meet sister yvonne. she's so prettie. aww..glory of God all over her! The summon was good. And my ldr's just great. He's the best man :) will be going to meley's wedding ltr ard 12.30 noon and after will be heading to my ex-cell member house warming..woohoo! Looks like my plans to lose weight..man, tom will be eating lots and lots..i can't resist eating, sigh! It's so good to be able to enjoy food, well, not everyone gets to eat good food. So i'm actually very blessed.. great day and tom's gonna be even BETTER!!!

i'm addicted to God's presence and will faint without it :p

deprived of sleep

2005-01-28T01:49:00.000+08:00

i'm having a big headache now. so going to bed right away. will post ltr.ciaos.. HELP!!!

sick jojo :(

without love ..

2005-01-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

Praise the Lord! There's $80 of sales today.

Getting better...Went for BS today, was great. It's about Life's greatest Aim. So what's your life greatest aim? To have a fat fat bank account? To be a high-ranking someone? To be the most popular kid in school? no no.. It's all about love actually. Without love itself, all that i say is ineffective [1 cor 13 : 1] , all that i know is incomplete [1 cor 13 : 2] , all that i believe is insufficient [ 1 cor 13 : 2 ], all that i gave is insignificant [ 1 cor 13 : 3 ], all that i accomplished is inadequate [1 cor 13 : 3b ]. It's so true :) I may praise people or even flatter them but without love, it's not going to touch their lives. I can be the smartest of them all, but if love's missing, who's gonna be there to rejoice with me even if i have a million degrees. i can believe in God but christianity's is a lifestyle, a lifestyle to love. I love this.. Pastor always reminds us that you can give without loving but you cannot love without giving. Come to think of it, it's so true. Some people give out of guilt or power or some other motives but only giving with love can satify. Only with love, that relationship are birth. Without love, all that i accomplished is inadequate. The point here is relationships are far more important than accomplishments in life. And pastor Audrey taught us that when God evaluates us, He would evaluate my relationships with people, not my accomplishments and this also reminds me that we are not saved my works but by God's grace. And the reward is when you love, it's evident that you are a disciple of Jesus and i'n praying for God to mould me into a more loving child of His...

Yea..i love BS and there's always something new to learn! Looks like i 'm going to miss my cell this Sat bcos of Meley's wedding -sigh- :(

PS - - - - You are Commanded to LOVE and there's no bargain in a commandment :D

230105 Rededicate my life to Jesus

2005-01-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

Today is a very significant day of my life where i rededicate my life to Jesus. It has been a few months since God asked me to respond to the altar call as i have been very dry spiritually but i withdrew from every single opportunity because of my pride. Whenever there was an altar call, there would be a still small voice from God telling me to renew my life before Him and He would promise to deliver me from all my pride and restore my relationships with people. During service today, i tried hard to feel the presence of God but i guess my disobedience hindered my relationship with God and somehow deep inside it was so empty. I remembered when i first joined City Harvest Church, i was a nobody yet so sensitive to God and almost every single time during worship, my tears will just overflow and the feeling is beyond words-so good. The presence of God was always there not until i stopped praying and totally lost the momentum to pray and gradually my Bible-reading stopped too and there i was drifting further away from God and His ever holy presence. And it was then that i relied on my own strength. Each day was still good but i felt very dry on the inside and faith was leaking. On the inside, i just wasn't satisfied but there was something that i could relate to, something which my dad always tells me - no point gaining the whole world and losing my own soul. This is so true. I've got really good friends and so many things to be thankful about but not God. And this also reminds me of something, that God is my everything. When you have Him, all things will follow you and there's no need to seek for favour, chase after material possesions. So today, when Pastor Kong Hee gave the altar call, i told sister Lo that i wanted to go and she accompanied me down. when i reached the front, i coundn't help but start crying. I was very touched by God's presence. I knew my life was renewed and all the ugly side of me is gone. I've to testify that the feeling is the BEST, really, and i love Jesus even more now. It seems that the whole atmosphere changed after i responded to God. I think it isn't about your reputation, status, talents, achievements, abilities or positions that determine your happiness or joy. It all comes from God Himself. I really want to thank God for He, Himself, for showing me that He is all i need and depend on and making this a revelation in my life. Today is my happiest day on planet Earth. And all thanks to my Jesus!

:(

2005-01-23T01:03:00.001+08:00

Was glad that we had cell today cos haven't have it for a while..faith's leaking..very dry..
I think today's msg was directly from God to me..my ldr talked about 12 steps to have a good 2005..
The part that hit me sooo hard and i really felt convicted about is my walk with God..
I've not been reading the Bible and praying for a few months..My relationship with God is like a rescueing relationship.. I feel so empty although everything seems to be perfectly fine..But i've to say that God's ever faithful and he has been waiting to hear from me..He has blessed me in my workplace and my relationships with people all over..sometimes even in church, the presence of God was so hard to be felt..God has been asking me to go back to Him but like what my ldr said, i've the no-hurry attitude cos i feel there's always another day to pray and read His word..The word was delivered in time. I feel i've to be dilligent in the right area of my life and major in the major..and straight after cell, while on the way to meet karina, i felt the calling from God again and turned to hebrews 3 : 7-8 which speaks '' Today, if you will hear His voice, Do not burden your hearts as in the rebellion, in the day of trial in the wilderness...'' I read this verse for about three times and the answer and direction was clear that if God's calling me, do not burden myself in being rebellious by disobeying him. I've made up my mind to read the Bible and pray everyday and have a close relationship with God where we can share our secrets with each other and let His will be my will...

ZZZZZZZ

2005-01-21T00:30:00.000+08:00

"Jo..do you want to answer your call? " my daddy woke me up ..ah, so tired but thought i shld go answer but was still in the wondering-who-is-it mode..realised it was ken..oli wanted to invite ken and me to her place..just to catch up since we haven't met for a while.. so sweet of them but i couldn't make it cause i've to work @ 3pm..
okie, i waana go ZZzzz now..very tired '__' *gong cha cha
will be back again tonight..

zombie [o'-'o]

where is my money?

2005-01-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

aww..i'm listening to absolute worship now and it's 1.52am on friday..lotsa things to say so hv to chop chop or else mama will chop me for sure if i don't ZZzz any time sooner..

kae, today is superb and a fantastic day for me..met up with jo and eggy to a professional hair salon to hv a haircut for cny..hm..nice to be able to catch up with eggy again and i guess we hardly talk after he left n105.. woohoo..the hair stylist's very very good..you can trust me for this one..she styled my hair..whoa..suddenly i become lyk a princess liao..hees..sobs.. i thot i could see him again when i go for my haircut today but i only 'see' him but sadly without my spectacles cos i took it off when my hair was being done up by Angie..and jo was lyk " joce, did you see him? " "ya..." i replied followed by a big gush over him..haha..i think he's one of the best looking guy i 've ever seen so far whom i can truely consider handsome..Got to talk to him the last time and this time round..man..he dyed his hair..whoa..just like one of my church song ldr..sooo cool..yah..i missed him by a second..if only i've put on my spects...eeee...

okie..will not go too much to there..hee :P then after that went to makan wif jo n eggy @ scotts.. oh yes..those who wanna get a haircut and hv a brand new look..i'll reccomend u this one..it's 20 bucks..special for my frens only..get more details from me if u want..kae..then jo went to grt worlf 1st them eggy n me went to shop..i chose 2 shirts for him..whoa v nice n cheap..in wisma atria..i'll recommend any guys who want nice shirts to go but too..in a rush now so can contact me for more details too..yeps..

and after that report to work straight..though no sales for the past few days..at least there's some customers who walked in and tried some clothes..it's getting a lot better..thank God..

then went home..here's sumtink v funny and kidda embarrassing lo..i was so engrossed into my smsing that i didn't realise tt the train actually terminate in yishun..i was smsing until the lights went off..hahaha..with my face turning red..i quickly rushed out of the train..and started out bursting into laughter.. yes!!! to myself.. cause i thot was a big big joke..nv encounter such a thing b4....then called jo immediately to tell her what happened m prevent others from realising tt i'm laughing to myself..ah ya.. quite stoopid lo..

that was how my day ended.. reached home was v addicted to the comp and chop chop went to bathe b4 my mom n daddy comes home from their cell..

and i just finished eating 1 whole pack of fried ric..ya..@ tis late hr..

kae la..really gtg..mama coming out from toilet soon..

super high

ps: pics will be coming up soon

fOr You ...

2005-01-20T01:26:00.000+08:00

just a little feel like wanna pray
many times i do forget every need that are truely met
thank you Lord just for loving me
i know you show in me
you are there when i'm down
you hold me
i wanna say thank you
oh thank you
everything for who you are
cover me and touch my heart
you gave me strength and peace to carry on
worship you ...

Daddy, you know i'm so tired but yet still care so much to blog..i think i shall not complain about all that has happened but thank you for the continuous blessings and favour in my life. the above is very much dedicated to you..
today has been a long day...i slept @ 3+am this morning and woke up @ 9.21am and realised that i'm very late cause i'm supposed to meet yimei n her bunch of frens @ yck mrt @ 9.45am..oh oh..i thought to myself..not exactly nice to let 6 other peeps whom i don't know to wait fer me..i gave her a ring immediately but she did not pick up my call..i care less and jus chop-chop, changed, ate my bee hoon, packed my bag n went out of my hse wif great speed..woo.. then the whole bunch of us went to nyp open hse..i'm greatly impressed by the professionism.. great environment..after collecting our goodies bags..which consist of a mag, pen, sweet, ermm..sorrie can't rem..then headed to the auditorium..@ 1st i never like mass comm..never..i dunno why..don't ask..but somhow after some prayers and really thinking abt wat i love to do..hm..i like to talk, learn how to write better, do promoting, release my creative juices in designing catalog etc.. and come to think of it..only mc offers practically all this courses..hm..i nv think of gng into mc but i guess God is showing me e way.. i've decided not to depend on my own feelings abt where to go but rather let Daddy choose for me..that way, i'll have grt adventures wif Him.. for now..i'm running head over heels for mc course but Daddy its up to you to show me favour n lead me as u've promised..i love you Dad!! really..sometimes, when i'm so occupied wif activities and hv no time fer you, everything may seems so good on the surface but on the inside its so empty..my dad's right..no pt gaining the whole world but losing your own soul..amen..i wana dwell forever in your arms, hug me so tightly..and i love the BS today..and it's so relevant to wat i typing now..abt Fatherhood..it's easy for us to know that God loves us but do we regard Him as our Father and feel his love for us? Love is deep, love is high, love is long, love is wide..love is deeper than my family roots, love is higher than this worldly place, longer than the route i travel, wider than the gap you'll fill..it's deeper..it's higher, it's longer, it's wider..that's God's love..yay.. okie..back to my day..then after tt went for BS @ ymca..i love it.. :D was late for 20 min..but thk God the study jus started not long when i reached.. i breathe a breath of relief..@ 7.03pm it ended and i went to meet them again @ Bugis..bugis village hv soo many trendy tops and everything..will go dere to shop prob sometime next week..oh i forgot someting..i went to np open hse too imediately after we finished touring nyp..though the buildings not as new as nyp.. i would say it's so friendly, condusive to study, different, and the best of the best is that mc course dere is v established..i talked to many many many many lecturers n students n oso gotten a year 3 mc student's contact..she seems to hv quite abit of confidence in me to get in..is tis a hint fom God? no idea.. poly's life so diff and uit's seems to b soo much more fun..okies..i gtg ..ma chasing me again.. (it's becoming a norm for me )

mood: fruitful day so happy but tired esp my feet cos i wore heels..bleh.. :O

hugs blog after mad conqueror invade

2005-01-18T12:34:00.000+08:00

hip hip hooray..i've been very crazy about having a bloggle and finally have one..it's 1.02am on tues now..gtg before mama chase me to ZZzz...will be back again ltr.. :D

mood: high :D